Story of the Week

Christmas is almost here! hooray! has everyone got their shopping done yet? well, it's a madhouse out there! people are everywhere trying to buy gifts for this giving season.

Well, the other day, Leilani asked me if I would go shopping with her. I happily agreed, for I love shopping for gifts. First we went and got some gift cards at Carrabba's. We got a lot, and for ended up recieving two 20 dollars gift cards for free. We were feeling good about that, but wondering what to do with them. Should we use them? Give them?

Well, on our way out of the parking lot, Leilani spotted something. There was a man standing on the corner, holding up a sign that said, "Homeless. Anything will help."

Now, usually I don't really do anything when I see people like this. But Leilani looked worried and started panicking. "Oh no, what should I give him? I don't have any cash."

I was surprised that she wanted to give something to this guy. but before I could say anything she exclaimed, "Oh! the extra gift cards! Let's give him one!" Since the homeless guy was on my side, I had to roll down my window and give it to him. I got nervous, I hadn't ever done anything like that before. I didn't really know what to say, and got more nervous the closer we got to him. But I had to give it to him, so I just did it. I reached the gift card out to him. it came out in a rush. "Here's twenty dollars to Carrabbas." I said shakily. Instantly, my nervousness left me. As soon as the man saw what I was giving him, he graciously took it and absolute joy filled his entire being. I cannot describe the look of pure thankfulness filled his face. "Oh thank you! Thank you so much! This is for Carrabbas? I'll go there right now!" he said with so much excitement and happiness. I barely said 'you're welcome' before we drove away. I was in complete and utter awe. There was a burning warmth inside of me that wasn't there moments ago. It felt so good to help that man. I couldn't focus on Leilani or shopping or anything for a while after I had done that. I just kept seeing that man's face in my head, and how I lani and I helped him get some food. Because of us, someone received food. That's what this season is all about. Giving, serving, and helping others. Our Heavenly Father sent his most beloved Son down for us, to save us. What greater gift could we ever receive than that? So let's do our part this season, and for the whole year, and give to others, helps those in need, comfort those in need of comfort, and have the spirit of Christ.

Merry Christmas!!

story of the week

I love my oldest sister Heather. she is so wise, I learn so much from her. she always tells me things that make me think, and laugh. like on Holly's birthday we were driving together to the resturaunt. traffic was a bit heavy, so it was slow going on the free way. Heather was frustrated and expressed her sentiments about having to wait in traffic. Then she paused, thought for a bit, and said, “Why am I so impatient? I mean, what’s wrong with waiting? We are all waiting to die. So why should five minutes of waiting in traffic be a big deal?”
I love my sister, and her wise counsel. we all are waiting to die. so why should we get impatient? :)

Frustrating Week

I had a most trying week. Really, it was amazing all that had happened to me. I was looking foward to last week, good things were going to happen. I had an interview with Borders, my favorite bookstore, my dream job, on monday. On thursday was the day I had been waiting for for months!-New Moon. I bought the tickets a month in advance, and just thinking of being able to go was what got me through each day. And then on Friday Heidi, Grandma, and I were going to go out to Mimi's Cafe for breakfast. I was really excited for this week, it was going to be really great! First monday came. Thanks to Leilani, I got all pretty and dressed up and prepared for my interview. as soon as I stepped in the store, I had a good feeling overwhelm me. I really wanted this job, I longed to work there. All throughout the interview, I had the good feeling. The interview went really good, and I left happily. If I got a phonecall on Tuesday, that meant I would have gotten the job. If I didn't get a phonecall by tuesday, then no job. But I had confidence, I was sure I would get a phone call.
Tuesday came....no phone call.
I was upset, but I tried not to let it get to me. My wonderful mother took me out shopping and got me cute clothes to help me feel better. I regained composure, and tried to be happy. I still had mimi's cafe and New Moon, it was still going to be great.
Then Heidi tells me the news..no more Mimi's Cafe. And I totally understood, it was okay, I tried not to let it get to me, I still had New Moon.
Thursday came, and I went to the theater five hours early to wait in line. I went to print off my tickets, my excitement and happiness the highest it had been all week. I saw all the people there in line, all hyped up for the most awaited movie. I couldn't wait to join them!
What? my tickets wouldn't print?
I go to the ticket booth. I give them my reciept, showing I paid for the tickets, and my confirmation number, and the card I paid them with.
I can't get my tickets. it said they've already been printed.
What?
She tried again and again, but every time it said that my tickets had already been printed and picked up. I'm starting to panic. She called a manager. I calmed a bit. Surely the manager would fix this problem, surely he'd be caring and would do all he could to help a customer who already paid.
He came. he said, "These tickets have already been printed. We have a full house. There is nothing I can do." and then he left.
He didn't even let me speak. that's all he said and did. I was in shock for a moment, and stood there stupidly.
I was crushed. I went back to my car. this was the turninig point. I was already on the edge all week, and this is what did it for me. Someone must have hacked into my account and stole my confirmation number and stole my tickets.
Someone stole my tickets.
I cracked. I went half mad I'm pretty sure. so I sobbed off my face, and sat in the car for an hour. Bill came to talk to the manager, but they wouldn't do anything.
They wouldn't do anything.
I went home and curled into a ball and fell asleep. the next morning I felt mentally exhausted. I didn't want to get up, I just wanted to lie in misery.
But, I had to take care of Rachel who was sick. So I got up and went into auto pilot and started helping her. I asked her what movie she would like to watch, and she said The Count of Monte Cristo. I thought that was a weird choice for an eleven year old, but I love that movie, so I put it on.
I'm so glad Rachel chose that movie. it helped me so much! Edmund, the main character, is such a good person doing right things, but his friend sent him to prison for something he was innocent about, and he was there for thirteen years! After he got out, he said this quote, and this quote is what really helped me "Life is a storm my friend. You'll bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout... Do Your Worst"
That gave me chills. It really gave me strength, and made me shout Do your worst at life. I felt better. I slowly came back to life.
Once I did, I realized how blessed I was. my family cared so much about me, and Holly even bought me a ticket to go to the movie on Saturday. Everyone cared about my happiness.
I became better, I healed.
And I had a great time on Saturday. Holly, Krystal, Kynsie and I went to see New Moon (which was awesome! Go Jacob!) and then we went to Texas Roadhouse, which is my new fav restaurant! and then we went to Jesse's birthday party, and watched a MST of Twilight, which was just what I needed, to laugh and laugh and laugh.
So I'm really glad for this trying week that I had. in the end, I feel I have become mentally stronger to endure tough times in life. And I know that I always have my family to make me better.
Just shout 'Do Your Worst' and be glad you were not in prison for thirteen years.

Happy Day

it took me about a year, but I did it. I wrote a book. one of my life time goals was to write a book, and I never thought I would have ever accomplish it. But I did. I finished it on October 20. And I am happier then I ever thought I could be!
It's called Tear Drops, and it has a cool tree in it. it is amazing and I love it!
maybe some day I'll get it published

Halloween

alright, so, halloween. One word. AMAZING!!! it was such a great halloween!! I had soo much fun! I bought my costume sometime during the month, and I couldn't wait to wear it. Once halloween came and I dressed up, it was even better then I imagined. I was a pirate, and an awesome one at that! I had a sword and a gun and a hat and a rum bottle and the perfect clothes. it was the best day ever.
Jesse and Kelsy threw and awesome halloween party, it was so fun, I hope we do one every year! And, at the party, I won the costume contest! woot! :) krystal, kynsie and I made music video in our fun costumes that night, then went trick or treating. it was a blast!

Pumpkins and Beauty

So, we went to get pumpkins one cold, windy night. Of course the pumpkins were outside. So we were dancing up and down trying to keep warm while trying to find the perfect pumpkin. I chose mine, krystal chose hers, kynsie was still looking. If anyone knows, pumpkins are really heavy and a pain to move around to get to the one you want.then kynsie tells us that she wants to see one that's at the very bottom. We all help, working together to move the pumpkins in the biting wind. It was a lot of work, and a lot of lifting heavy pumpkins. Finally we did it, we got the bottom one out and free!
Kynsie decided she didn't want it.
Hahahahaha I love you kynsie.
Well, Heather and Jared were gone for their anniversery, and so the kids and I partied! Krystal and kynsie slept over, and so we did a fashion show. It was so much fun, those girls are so beautiful!

Sleep over

So, what a fun three day weekend. Krystal and kynsie slept over on sunday night, which turned out to be the best thing ever! The kids had no school on monday, and so they helped me entertain them! we even had a dance party (while we cleaned the house)! It was great fun.

here are some pics

granny pants! woot!

oh kyrstal and kynsie, my two peas in my pod! you make me want to say a haiku...but I forgot how do to do haikus.

Fall

I went on a hike last week. I love fall! I love the feeling in the air as soon as october hits! I love the smell of the furnance! I love the fall air! I love the beautiful trees and leaves! the hike was beautiful. I went with mom, and it was gorgeous! I forgot to bring a camera, but I took home some leaves, and took some pictures of them.
There's nothing more marvelous than fall leaves falling through the air

A sign for me

haha. I think they made this sign for me.

Happy Stuff

some things that have made me so happy of late:

~Books
~Bike Rides; they really help you handle life
~A job well done
~music
~Reading great books
~Writing the stories in my head
~being silly
~My family
~Sunday
~Peaches
~Mint filled brownies
~Samurai Jack
~Singing
~beautiful stories
~getting emails from friends
~Writing
~My family

Life has been really great. I love my job, and it feels so good to work hard! I just really hope I'll be able to get enough money for shcool next semester.
And writing has really made me happy lately. as you know, I love love love books. I am addicted to them, to get lost in the pages of a different story. I am passionate about them. And so to be able to create my own story, it has brought me even more joy! I love writing, it makes me happy. And when I write something good, that other people enjoy, my happiness stretches even farther!
this weekend, I read out loud one of my stories to kynsie. Kynsie started bawling. I couldn't describe how it felt, that I touched someone. That my message and story got to someone else rather than just me. It brought tears to my eyes.

I am suddenly reminded of part of a song by They Might Be Giants. It's called Whistling in the Dark:

There's only one thing that I know how to do well

And I've often been told that you only can do

What you know how to do well

And that's be you,

Be what you're like,

Be like yourself

...

and so be yourself, and do what makes you happy :)

My New Buddy

I've been spending a lot of time with a special boy. My buddy Weston. Every morning, it's me and him, and so we have fun together. He is a really funny boy and always makes me laugh. Like today when I was walking him to school, we saw a helicopter, and he said, "Wow! it's so high up!"
I responded, "Yeah. Would you like to fly in a one someday?"
He promptly answered, "No. I just want to be Link."

hahaha! oh, he is great. We had some great fun in my room this morning, with the cows. Here's some pictures.

By the way, today is the coolest day ever! It's 9/9/09!!!! wow! I posted on 9/9/09! Awesome!